Don't Cry for Me - chapter 7
Chapter 7
Youth always passes in the blink of an eye. A few years later, I was admitted to Wudaokou, and Yao went to the Academy of Agricultural Sciences to do research on rural development.
But her relationship with Lou Qi ran into trouble.
Just when they could finally hold hands freely in public, Lou Qi cheated on her. She flew to his city and saw with her own eyes as he embraced and kissed a delicate junior, telling her that Yao was too strong-willed and not gentle enough, that he preferred someone soft and dependent.
Yao was in pain for a long time, constantly reflecting on what she might have done wrong in her first love. By the time I found out, she was already suffering from depression.
I accompanied her to see doctors, made sure she took her medication, and asked her to move in with me.
“Sometimes I don’t know if I’ve made the right choices all these years,” Yao said, drinking by the floor-to-ceiling window. “Why is it that after giving so much, I still don’t have the right to be loved?”
“I love you,” I told her.
“But in Mom and Dad’s hearts, you’ll always be the best daughter. I’m their biological child, yet they love you more.” Yao looked away. “I’ve always known…”
“But I love you.”
Yao trembled: “You love many people. Dad, Mom, me… We’re all your family, and you have Xu Ge too.”
She seemed cold, hugging herself: “I just, I just want there to be someone in the world for whom I am the one and only, above all else.”
“Actually, you always have been,” I looked at the mirror across from us.
There was a drunken, lost girl there, surprised to meet her own gaze.
“The world and others are things we can’t control or beg for. But at least, we can love ourselves.” I looked out at the night, sparkling with city lights, and took a sip of wine.
I knew what she was suffering from.
She suffered because she wasn’t a soulless caged bird, couldn’t be so fragile that she only had Lou Qi, couldn’t give up her dignity to serve Lou Qi. When she was filling out her college applications, she had already struggled between her dreams and him.
She made her choice, and now she had lost him.
She didn’t realize that even if she spent ten years with only Lou Qi in her heart and eyes, she and Lou Qi would never have a happy ending.
Yes, it was only later that I realized Lou Qi was actually the Male Lead.
Because normal people wouldn’t have such a unique name, nor such a background.
Because of my intervention, in this world, Lou Qi and I became ordinary acquaintances, while Yao fulfilled the wish she could hardly attain in the original story-she became Lou Qi’s first love.
But White Moonlight always turns into plain rice.
“Do you remember what I told you on your first day of school, after you fought with Sun Yue and the others?” I let her rest her head on my lap, combing through her hair.
She sank into memories.
“I said, they’re bad eggs…”
“When you meet bad eggs, don’t look for the reason in yourself,” she murmured, half-asleep.
“Think carefully: was he really that good? Was he truly a caring, gentle, loyal partner who could help you grow, who could make you happy?”
No, he wasn’t, of course he wasn’t.
He would look for a Substitute after missing out, deceiving himself.
He would selfishly wallow in his own feelings, ignoring the Substitute’s devotion.
He would also, after being caught cheating, push all the blame onto Yao.
When you’re young, you might meet the wrong people. Mistakes can be beautiful, but it’s best to leave them in the memories of youth.
“It’s not that you’re not worthy, it’s that he’s not worth it. Don’t obsess over whether he loves you-ask yourself, do you love yourself?”
Yao’s brows gradually relaxed, and then, as if a weight had been lifted, tears streamed down her face. “Yes, yes…”
If you never look back, you’ll never realize how long a road you’ve already walked.
Even if there were a few thorns, they couldn’t stop the flowers from blooming in abundance.
She could, with a clear conscience, tell the little girl curled up in the countryside, eyes wide with fear, “I am the adult you wanted to become.”
In the end, she did not let herself down.
“Besides, men-if you haven’t experienced them, you’ll think they’re rare…”
Before she finished, her phone rang.
She wiped her tears and answered. On the other end, a deep and pleasant voice said, “Hello, little fairy, I heard you’re feeling down tonight. May I cheer you up for a while?”
Yao: ?
Some young guy from the internet, five yuan for half an hour of chatting…
I winked at her, keeping my skills and fame hidden.
Since Yao is my own sister, of course I booked her a pricier one, a bit longer-consider it a soul massage.
I believe she’ll soon realize that, as a single little rich lady, she doesn’t need to drown her sorrows in alcohol. She can totally cry in her Maserati, clad in Prada.
I reminded her to get a gastroscopy at the hospital when she had time, then put on my trench coat and went downstairs. Xu Nanyi was waiting below, exuding an ominous aura: “Your sister said you booked her a little guy.”
I froze mid-step. “She had a breakup. You’re largely responsible for this. You were the one who approved Lou Qi in the first place.”
Xu Nanyi snorted, “I’ve already beaten him up-so why do you have so many young guys on WeChat?”
“I don’t have that many young guys on WeChat. I just know how to use Taobao and Xianyu efficiently.”
“Then how do you know there are young guys on Taobao and Xianyu offering to cheer people up?” He stepped closer, pinning me against the wall in dissatisfaction.
“Uh… I’m just a well-informed person.”
Xu Nanyi pressed his nose to mine, his eyes deep as the stars. “Lin Shuangshuang, stop dodging my questions. I’ve been waiting for you… for many years.”
This little nobody, at this moment, became the most important person in the whole wide world.
“Alright, I accept your proposal.”
“Huh?… Huh!”
“Huh what?”
“I-I just wanted to ask if you’d be my boyfriend…”
“That works too. Then you be the boyfriend.”
“Wait! I can really marry you? You actually… you actually thought about marrying me…”
“Ah, I thought you were proposing.”
“And you just… agreed so easily?”
“What’s the big deal? If it doesn’t work out, we can always divorce-”
The once-shy Xu suddenly burst out with a terrifying killing intent.
Today, I am once again being hunted by my fiancé.
The life of a rich heiress is just that simple and boring.
