Doll Survival Game - Chapter 120 - Part 17

Luo Yiran flipped through the thin, slightly worn diary.

He carefully read each sentence written on the pages, then extended his thoughts beyond each sentence to gather more information.

Page after page turned, and the emotions on Luo Yiran’s calm face shifted back and forth.

The overwhelming despair and pain, along with the joy of experiencing these emotions.

If only they could merge, but for now, he could still distinguish that these were not his own feelings.

However, they suited him so well that he decided to give them some time.

He flipped faster and faster, his eyes growing brighter–the omnipresent suffocation, not thrilling, but the pain and despair accumulated from countless small incidents, making it difficult to move forward.

And he ‘understood’ this pain, savoring the imposed sense of suffering.

Indeed, this is humanity.

But has he been influenced by the doll’s shell for too long?

The craving for emotions is stronger than ever before.

Even knowing it’s easy to fall into an irreversible situation.

Luo Yiran’s eyes carried a hint of madness, he sincerely hoped–please let pain and despair prevail, let his rationality disappear…

Click, the sound of the door opening echoed, accompanied by Qiu’s mother’s voice as she asked, “Darling, do you want yogurt…”

Luo Yiran suddenly turned his head, and Qiu’s mother’s voice abruptly stopped. Her pupils dilated for a moment upon meeting Luo Yiran’s eyes, fear and disbelief made her instinctively blink, wanting to confirm if she had seen correctly, but after that less than a second blink, she only saw Qiu Qiu displaying a joyful smile, saying, “Did you buy yogurt? I want some!”

Qiu’s mother was stunned, she stammered, “…Oh… okay, I’ll, I’ll get it for you…”

Just now, she must have seen wrong… She must have seen wrong, otherwise how could she have seen such a terrifying gaze like a hungry beast from her little darling.

Her body seemed somewhat off.

Zhang Mimi was violently pushed against the wall, pain radiating from the back of his head. He looked at the three men in front of him–why did he feel scared! Why couldn’t he fight back!

They’re just a bunch of punks, he could fight back, or at least shout out, even though school was over, there must still be people around!

But…

A slap landed hard on Zhang Mimi’s face, and he fell to the ground, his vision darkened–unable to resist, his entire being was engulfed by fear that wasn’t his own.

Why? He didn’t feel afraid, but why was this emotion present?

…

Was it the body’s reaction? Then what state was he in now? Possession?

And this body was quite similar to him, so shouldn’t be bullied, right? Even as an ordinary person, he could run 800 meters in high school without panting or turning red, and had the strength to knock down college students with a punch!

Zhang Mimi glanced at his trembling hand due to fear–was the weakness psychological? Timid? Outnumbered?

…No.

Zhang Mimi gritted his teeth, trying to stand up, but his hands were too weak to support his body, so he collapsed again.

–What was he thinking! It’s not the victim’s fault, how could the victim find fault in themselves?

No matter what, it’s the perpetrator’s fault!

His waist was kicked hard, Zhang Mimi’s back hit the wall, he coughed twice, his hand trembling violently–no, still too scared.

The body clearly had room to maneuver, but felt incapable of doing anything.

Zhang Mimi lowered his eyes.

“…”

Since this fear that wasn’t his own prevented him from saving himself, could someone come to save him?

…

The three surrounded him, and fists began to rain down on him, Zhang Mimi’s eyes uncontrollably showed despair–no one could save him.

Seeing that he had no reaction to struggle, the three boys lost interest, mocked him for a while, then turned to leave.

Even after they left, Zhang Mimi didn’t move, he squinted slightly, gasping, his body aching.

Fear and sadness continued to surge, but his own emotions felt indifferent and unwilling, two completely different feelings intertwined in his mind, Zhang Mimi kept taking deep breaths to avoid mixing them up, he gritted his teeth and said, “Lin Ye…”

What should he do?

He’s almost being swallowed by someone else’s emotions… should he rely on his strong will to resist? He was inherently fearless.

But the problem was the fear wasn’t his, it was felt by this body!

…Or was it imposed by this small instance!

Either way, the result was he was enduring two different emotions, so relying solely on willpower might not be enough.

Zhang Mimi moved resentfully, then his expression changed–

It hurt–

Better to lie down for now.

These little punks really went all out. How did the flowers of the motherland become like this… wait, these brats aren’t even the flowers of the motherland, are they?

Zhang Mimi lay flat. Better to forget it, don’t get angry, don’t get angry, he’s already on the verge of being driven to tears by the inexplicable fear and despair, if his own anger joins in, the emotions will become even more chaotic.

“…”

Zhang Mimi looked ahead, where the sunset’s light was blocked by the wall, unable to illuminate this corner–the feeling of helplessness was terrifying, knowing what to do but unable to act.

And if he followed this emotion that wasn’t his own, he might end up collapsing… or committing suicide.

After all, no normal person can live in negative emotions forever!

Zhang Mimi pressed his lips tightly together, then suddenly raised his eyes to glare angrily at the air–Perseverance! Perseverance! How could he be defeated by mere emotions!

He feared nothing, feared nothing, feared nothing…

After silently chanting for a long time, Zhang Mimi, with furrowed brows and reddened eyes, pulled himself together–Good! The fear had somewhat dissipated… Though it might have naturally faded away, it didn’t matter, as long as the result was the same!

Zhang Mimi slowly reached out his hand to touch the wall, then gradually stood up–He had to think, now that he was alone, he could only rely on his own thoughts.

First of all, Lin Na in this small instance wasn’t bullied; the one being bullied was him… Why was that? This small instance was established based on Tang Bai’s past, right? Then it should be Lin Na… Hmm?

Zhang Mimi paused slightly.

This was what the Dead Woman knew about Tang Bai’s past, not the “real past.”

Although the foundation should remain unchanged.

But there would be deviations, likely existing like an adapted play!

It depended on the understanding of the original work… and whether the adapter would add their own elements.

It seemed like he had come up with a good example. Zhang Mimi snorted forcefully–He was quite clever!

But since the foundation was still there…

And Tang Bai’s past was closely linked with Lin Na’s past.

Then Tang Bai also existed in this small instance… Oh right, the door to this small instance was Tang Bai’s relief, he must be involved.

Then Lin Na, to some extent, also participated in the bullying against him, although it’s unclear from which side… Unfortunately, he didn’t hear what those three people said earlier, otherwise, he might have known the reason for the bullying, whether “he” had done something that led to it…

Hiss–Why was he thinking like this again?

Zhang Mimi took a deep breath, mentally slapped himself twice, then calmed down.

He remembered, back in Lin Na’s instance, the bully played by Xia Lang had stated that the reason for bullying was merely because the sun was shining brightly and flowers were blooming splendidly that day.

Because of the hatred for everything too beautiful, they naturally hated the person amidst that beauty.

Therefore, here too, he must not attempt to find reasons from the victim.

Zhang Mimi stood straight, the places where he was injured began to bruise and swell.

…It seemed he needed to visit a hospital or clinic first.

Speaking of which, where did he live? Or was he a boarding student?

Ah… He knew nothing.

Zhang Mimi leaned back against the wall, rarely feeling a sense of despondency, although this certainly wasn’t entirely his own emotion.

He adjusted his breathing again, then slightly closed his eyes, recalling what happened after Lin Na’s instance ended.

At that time, after his cousin Lin Na died in the game, he accompanied Lin Ye home, because his cousin Lin Na was deliberately left with a life in the previous instance by the game, then sent to Lin Na’s instance to die, perhaps for a reason.

But unfortunately, after his cousin Lin Na died in the game, all traces of her existence in reality disappeared, and no one remembered her, making it almost impossible to find clues.

Yet they still visited his cousin Lin Na’s university, logically speaking, no one should remember her, but a girl who was once his cousin Lin Na’s classmate said, “Lin Na? I know her.”

At that time, they thought the game had a bug, so someone remembered her, but as the girl narrated, he and Lin Ye realized that this Lin Na was not his cousin Lin Na.

During those three years in high school, at the school where his cousin Lin Na was, there was another Lin Na with the same name.

If they hadn’t experienced the “Lin Na’s Last Day” instance, perhaps they wouldn’t have thought much of it, but after experiencing that instance, the same name made them feel cautious, even somewhat fearful.

After all, it was possible that this Lin Na was the prototype for the instance.

However, from the classmate’s narration, they learned that Lin Na’s family situation was not the same as the setting in the instance, and because that Lin Na was a loner, they couldn’t find or learn about her current situation.

So whether they were the same person was unprovable; whether it was related to his cousin Lin Na entering a death trap was also unknown. Although the possibility was quite high.

But it was just speculation, because Lin Ye left home early, so he didn’t know much about his cousin Lin Na, even if she was a bully, Lin Ye was unaware, and now that everything about his cousin Lin Na had been erased, there were even fewer clues.

Although they visited his cousin Lin Na’s personal space, from the layout, it seemed they could only tell she was someone who loved adventure…

…Maybe after leaving this small instance, he could ask Luo Yiran for help, he seemed quite skilled in this area.

“……”

Ah! He had gotten sidetracked while thinking!

Zhang Mimi’s mouth twitched, then he sighed, slowly opening his schoolbag–He hadn’t looked carefully before being taken out, let’s see if there were any clues in the schoolbag, and… there seemed to be an exam tomorrow?

This was too despairing, could he find the key to escape this instance before the results were out?

“Zhang, Zhang Mimi!”

A girl’s voice sounded softly from above.

Zhang Mimi paused, then quickly looked up, and saw a girl at the second-floor window: “…Lin Na?”

Lin Na was leaning out of the window, her expression conflicted and occasionally looking back: “Thank you, thank you for helping me earlier!”

“And…”

Zhang Mimi froze, watching Lin Na hesitate to speak, vaguely feeling that her next words, the words she was about to say, were very important.

It seemed that once she spoke, he would understand many things about this small instance.