Chapter 6

How long has it been since Jiang Ye last touched me?

I pondered this while smoking.

It seems to have started six months ago.

During that time, my work became hectic.

For a promotion, I worked overtime, staying up late night after night.

Every day, I just wanted to sleep when I got home.

Jiang Ye would hold me, trying to kiss me.

I pushed him away.

“Not now, I’m too tired, maybe next time!”

The first time, Jiang Ye didn’t mind, he even felt sorry for me.

The second time, he wasn’t too happy, but he held back his temper.

The third time, he got angry and slammed the door as he left.

I later found him at a bar.

I realized this wasn’t right.

So I wrapped my arms around his neck and accepted his fierce kiss.

That time wasn’t pleasant, I even felt pain.

Jiang Ye noticed too and ended it quickly.

That night, he turned his back to me, for the first time not turning over to hold me.

I felt helpless, not knowing how to fix it or how to comfort him.

But he was the one who comforted himself first.

He said it was his problem, that he was too impatient.

“Don’t overthink it, don’t take it to heart. Once you’re done with work, we’ll go on a trip!”

I thought the issue was resolved.

He was still good to me.

Even if he no longer held me while sleeping, even if we hadn’t been intimate for six months.

But he was good to me.

Yet now he says he thinks I’m dirty.

This description chills me to the bone every time I think of it since I first heard it.

The hand holding the cigarette kept trembling.

Ash fell on my hand, burning painfully.

But it was nothing compared to the hurt that description caused me.