Please Dote on Me - Novelbike

After the concert ended, I packed my bags to truly leave Japan. Once I left, I believed Shichui would naturally return to his peaceful life. He wouldn’t stubbornly insist on leaving the entertainment industry or do anything strange anymore. He would continue his vibrant life.

Right?

Standing at Narita Airport, I wished it could be like in the movies, where I would see him running towards me from afar to say goodbye, then hold me tightly in his arms. But he had no idea I was at the airport at that moment.

Shichui:

Dear, are you muttering “Qi Yang, where are you?” or shouting loudly, “Qi Yang, come out now, I’m counting down, three, two, one. Hurry up and come out!” I can imagine how foolish you look right now. But I can’t be willful anymore. Are you a child?

I couldn’t agree to that thing because I was too scared. I really lacked the courage. And I guess I needed too much of it, more than you could give.

Thinking about spending the next ten or twenty years with someone as outstanding as you, worrying every day that beautiful female fans would flirt with you, fearing you might fall for a beautiful actress you work with-it made me want to retreat.

To always win in a crowd of 300,000 people who are crazy about you is not easy. So, I really don’t have the courage or confidence. I don’t want to live a life where I’m constantly struggling to win.

Don’t say silly things like you can stop being a star. I still want to sit in front of the TV, watching you, liking you so much that seeing you makes me want to cry. So, if you don’t keep going, how could I have that chance? Do your best.

This trip to Japan wasn’t in vain. Even if we part ways, I’m not alone. I always have your company, even if we’re not together and can’t see each other every day. Knowing that I’m not alone in this world, that you exist, will help me live well. You should too! Knowing each other’s existence will help us live a rich and happy life.

Brave and strong!

I never want to forget you, who can control your emotions so well. I’ll learn from you and face my life bravely.

Maybe words are useless

And maybe they will make you cry

But my unchanging heart wants to protect you

Yes, Two of us Yes, We can fall in love

Born on this brilliant planet, we met here

Yes, I can’t explain it well, but

Yes, I love you, it’s not a lie

Thank you for giving me such a beautiful song. I remember every word of the lyrics.

Haha. Do you remember the stuttering me? Because I really, really, really love you, so please do your best for me! You must always be this perfect!

Before boarding, Chinei handed me a CD.

“This is the first song Mingyan wrote and sang himself. He loved music a long time ago, writing and producing his own songs. Back then, he didn’t know much, and it took a lot of time to make this song. That’s why he often skipped classes. He was writing a song for you. He didn’t want to tell you, wanting to surprise you, so he didn’t answer when you asked why he skipped class. Before he could finish it, he had a car accident. This is an unfinished song, so he never made it public. He said he didn’t want to finish it, preferring it to remain his secret. Many of the songs in the concert were for you, but this one he didn’t want to share with anyone else. I decided to give you this unfinished song without telling him. Though I’m a bit jealous that you are loved so deeply by Mingyan, I wish you happiness.”

Chinei and I hugged, tears in our eyes, feeling complicated.

“Chinei, please stay by Shichui’s side and never let go of his hand. He’s a willful and troublesome guy who needs your company. If you can’t do it, I’ll come back and take Shichui away immediately,” I said.

“I’ll never give you that chance,” Chinei smiled, her tearful eyes shining with determination.

I hoped Chinei could bring Shichui happiness.

Looking back at Tokyo from high above, the city where Shichui Mingyan lives, I knew I would never appear there again, never recklessly show up in front of him.

I, Qi Yang, will always like him as a fan, worshipping him like a god.

Shichui Mingyan, no matter how complex the feelings, I want to say, “I love you uncontrollably. There are a billion kinds of love between people. Let’s not choose the hardest one. Let’s love each other in the most open-minded way.”

Looking out of the cabin window, I mouthed, “Shichui Mingyan, goodbye.”