Please Dote on Me - Novelbike

“Qi Yang, you can’t say that about me. I just… I don’t want to bring you trouble. I don’t want you to be followed by paparazzi every day, living a hard life. I don’t want our private dates to become ridiculous news in the media. I want to give you a normal life. If I love you, I’m willing to do that. Besides, I need your understanding! I just love music. Being admired by thousands means nothing! As long as I’m with you, I don’t need that! Even if no one admires me, I can still sing.”

Then, with a slight hint of pride, he added, “It’s the company that doesn’t allow artists to get married. If they would agree to that, I wouldn’t mind staying with the company.”

What a headache. It seems this guy has no sense of reality. He still wants to do things his way. But I can’t bring myself to say anything harsher to him.

“Are you blackmailing the company? If that’s how you solve problems, I might as well go back to my country right now. Consider it my way of blackmailing you.” I knew continuing this conversation with him would lead nowhere, so I stood up and walked away. I knew he was following me.

“Hey! If that’s the case, I’ll go back with you!”

Looking back, I saw Shichui standing there, looking at me with a roguish grin.

Can’t this guy act normal for once? He’s completely lost it. This behavior isn’t even typical of a playboy.

He followed me out of the café.

Walking down the street, the two of us kept our faces well hidden.

I couldn’t help but wonder how long this guy would keep being so stubborn. Do I really have to use harsher words to scold him? I just can’t do it. I turned around and asked him, “What exactly do you want?”

“I want to be with you forever! You don’t have to do anything. Just muster the courage. If you don’t have the courage, I’ll give it to you. Let me handle everything. I’ll face all the consequences. You just need to love me wholeheartedly without any reservations. Qi Yang, haven’t I done enough? Don’t I look like an idol? The real me would probably say and do even more strange things. Choosing between fate and freedom should be my decision, right?” Shichui looked at me seriously, waiting for me to make up my mind.

My defenses crumbled once again. I stopped walking but still faced away from him, listening to him speak. This guy saying such serious things is really unbearable. Now that he’s said this, what should I do? Shichui Mingyan, you idiot! How can you be so determined? How can I treat you like this when I don’t even have the right to refuse you?

“Such a hardworking person, now wanting to leave the entertainment industry just to get married. Isn’t that a pity?”

Chinei’s words echoed clearly in my ears. So I can’t waver now. I can’t ruin Shichui’s hard-earned career.

So I kept silent, holding back my tears, and continued walking as if I hadn’t heard a word Shichui said.

He stood there, watching me remain unmoved. He must hate me now, right? Yes, Shichui, do you know? I hate myself at this moment too. Like a block of ice. If you really hate me like this, then please keep hating me forever.

I felt my heart tighten painfully. Every step I took was so difficult it felt like it was tearing at every nerve.

“Qi Yang.”

After a few seconds of silence, he continued, “Can you seriously consider it?” His proud tone gradually softened into a plea. This made me so sad I wished I could be hit by a car and die instantly.

But my steps didn’t falter. Without even a hint of hesitation, I kept walking forward, back to him, with a mocking tone, I hurt him deeply: “No. I don’t want to be with someone like you at all.”

I promised Chinei I would do my best. It should be like this. But does Chinei really know? I’m so sad I could die. I really want to look back at Shichui behind me. I can’t imagine his expression. Tears flowed silently. I opened my eyes wide, walking faster and more determinedly. Leaving Shichui behind, heartlessly leaving him in the cold night air.

It’s because among the many reasons we can’t be together, there’s the crucial one that I shouldn’t hinder Shichui’s career for my own sake. This reason alone is enough to make me retreat.

I moved out of the hotel. I turned off my phone for several days, waiting to see Shichui’s concert.

“Yang Jiexi, I did the right thing. This is entirely for Shichui’s good.”

“You women! Do you even know what it means to do something for someone else’s good? Using the excuse of doing good for others to hurt their hearts! Finding grand reasons for your own cowardice! Hypocrites!” Yang Jiexi went crazy, yelling at me.

Damn it! I already hate myself enough, why does he have to add fuel to the fire?

“You heartless girl! Here! Your passport and wallet!”

Yang Jiexi returned everything he had hidden from me.

“After watching Shichui’s concert, I’ll go back to my country and disappear from his world completely!” I said more firmly.

Yang Jiexi didn’t even look at me and shut his room door.

After watching his concert, I’ll quietly return to my country and never appear in front of him again. Never. In the future, I’ll continue to watch his performances on TV, still talk to his posters, and still admire him with all my heart.

Shichui Mingyan.

For things that go against reality, we might as well stay within bounds.